I could say sorry for a million things everyday But I don’t want to be sorry anymore I’m sorry I don’t feel like talking to anyone I’m sorry I get overwhelmed so easy I’m sorry I don’t make a lot of money I’m sorry I get so emotional I’m sorry I had attitude I’m sorry touch overwhelms me sometimes I’m sorry I need space to … Continue reading Am I sorry?
so much noise at once the softness of spiderwebs in the grass the distant smoke seeping into the trees screams inside the chainsaw echo tree branches swaying, though the air is still cracks in the fence show shadows that aren’t there the air, exquisite, making all the noise worth it no clouds. Just blue, finally? leftover leaves feeling out of place bulbs awaiting their peak … Continue reading what does it mean to hear nothing, how does it feel
How could it already be 365 days? All I had with you was 3,155 days. Those days I replay in my head throughout the last 365, and for the rest of my life. Almost every moment accounted for. But counting the days is irrelevent. Sure it makes me grateful, I’ll be grateful for the rest of my life. But as the next 365 lay out … Continue reading 365 +- 3155 = forever
It’s like you plan it. Like you know exactly when you’re going to do it.There’s a look in your eye and a smirk on your face & you tense up just enough to look guilty as fuck.And I laugh it off and go along with it. Still.As soon as we’re done, I think “well that’s going to eat me alive for a week.” And it … Continue reading it’s actually not okay.
I’m done feeling like I need to be accepted by you to feel worthy or good about myself. I don’t wish to be apart of anything that doesn’t allow me to be my full self. I am swearing to myself to create healthy boundaries that keep me at peace. I want to feel good about myself when I am around people. I don’t want to … Continue reading Boundaries
If I listen to “that” music, but I pray every night and express my gratitude for my blessings, what would you say? If I listen to “that” music, but I always hold the door open for the person behind me, what would you say? If I listen to “that” music, but I never think twice about complimenting a total stranger, what would you say? If … Continue reading “That” music, “those” words.
I think since I graduated high school, every year of my life has gotten better. I’ve continued to become happier as each day turns into weeks, months and years. Coming from such a dark place that was K-12, I emerged excited and overwhelmed with freedom. It’s taken me almost 7 years to figure out what to actually do with that freedom, but thank goodness it … Continue reading all the little cracks. hello to the new decade.
Over the last few months I have learned quite a bit more about the people around me. I’ve always considered myself an empathetic person. And I’ve been pretty outspoken that I think empathy is something everyone should possess. The sad truth is, so many people do not have the ability to put themselves into someone else’s headspace. This year I finally feel like I’m surrounded … Continue reading keeping up with the seasons
There’s no way I can stop being mad at you, deep down, I always will be. But I need to find a way to stop thinking about you, anticipating you, and wondering about you. I want to stop thinking about you. I need to stop thinking about you. For the rest of my life. But I don’t think I can accomplish that, and it would … Continue reading Mad at myself for being mad.
Lately I’ve felt like I’ve been hearing too much of “Wake up early and get shit done” “Stop wasting time,” “Don’t wait, act now,” “Do more everyday to get closer to your dream!” And while I think that there is a time and placed to get shit done, jump on opportunities and live life to the fullest…I also think there needs to be messages out … Continue reading “…that of being.”
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